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Purple Carrot Club

A diary of my experiences put into the ether-net!    The Purple Carrot Club was seeded by my late partner Jim after a pretty intense operation to remove cancer masses from his body.   When he returned from the operation he quite emphatically ordered me to grow Purple Carrots.   That was on  New Year 2020.   He left us 4 weeks later.   I took him seriously, his request and the carrots are growing.    This site is one of those carrots  

 This website is soup pot of sharing from my life experience.    In the alchemy of suffering and the following of dreams I am recording each step.    I don’t really know why but I know I ask the difficult questions and challenge the programs that have contained us.   

Maybe I share this site to remember and keep Jim alive?  Maybe it is so my grand-daughter, Kaya, whom Jimi and I adored will know our story and experience?  Kaya was removed from our worlds abruptly and totally before he left.     Maybe this is for my daughter whom I love dearly and whom confuses me in her abandonment of our bond?  She turned away from me and disconnected into a world of her own and has not connected, in love, since Jimi passed?  Maybe this is for you, who reads my posts so that perhaps my words of discernment and vulnerability help you and give you strength in these times of turmoil?   And, maybe this is just for me and an echoing voice into the wild corridors of our collective sounds?

I am alchemizing life in words as it presents to me on this journey.   My words can be messy, logical, irrational and sensical.    Whatever it is for you, for me, it is a collection of muses; the ups and downs!    I write to discern.  I write to heal.  I write because our “real” words are important in a world that manipulates us.  

Below is a timeline of the articles written (most current first).   Jim was a force to be reckoned with and he remains in my words in this blog….

What Are You Afraid Of?

Now this is funny…and true, unfortunately!   I am certain Jim would like, no, love this!   I do too!   Enjoy! Carlin on Germs And, if you don’t think the shots are dangerous?   Listen to this… a well trained scientist…

Research … The Current News!

Do you know how many (f*cking) times I have been asked to prove myself…give the facts, links and data.    Quite honestly, I am fed up with this shenanigans.   What I can say is I have been dripped and dropped with many “facts” and “reality checks” over the decade I

What is Going on? How Do We Deal With This Mess?

It might just be time to give up!   Aren’t we at a point where we are “over it”?  Shouldn’t we come to that point of being over it?  How did it get so out-of-hand?    It is a game!  It is full of evil characters.    It is time to

The Y With A Sprinkle of Confusion

I don’t get it!  I really don’t!   What seems obvious and logical is not assimilated the same way by other creatures of the human species.   I have a lot of questions.  I have a lot of doubts.  I have a lot of wondering if anything we do can and will


A comrade recently asked me “is all the alchemy you are doing changing you?”   It came at a time when I was deeply feeling the “missing” of Jim.   I couldn’t answer.  That question has been carving me deeply since.   In fact, it has spun me into a dark night.   


Who am I?

It is not so much who am I but why I am here.  I don’t really know the answer but I do seek and search.    I have left the western world to discover myself and what it means to be human.   I am in process of creating many natural paths of medicine, self sufficiency and lost art alchemy.    There are not many teachers in this regard so I experiment and make many failures.    I have sacrificed a lot in the last year and suffered deeply.   I trust and imagine the difficult medicine is for a purpose.…read more…


Disclaimer: My sharings are expressions of a life.    I am always learning and discovering.  Therefore,  I reserve the right to change my mind and feelings.    Nothing I say can be used against me in this regard.   I intend to be honest and vulnerable.    There maybe gramatical errors.  There maybe perception errors.   I am not perfect.  I own everything that has and is happening to me.   If I seem off or harsh, maybe it is because I don’t always have warm and cuddly memories.   I am just telling my own truth.   

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